At noon

at 5:30

2nd time’s a charm WTF did i just do?
so i went back the next day to re-enter this $200k gtd tournament to prove that im good enough to do good in one of these donkaments… ummmm…yah right..

my table was pretty soft..nobody can really play..super abc and transparent.. through out the whole tournament.. i never had a hand.. or won any big pots…but i managed to squeeze myself to a semi healthy stack.. triple my starting chips by the end of the day .. till the last hand…. i had this huggggge brain fart that caused me to lose 98% of my chips… when i lost the hand.. i was like..WTF did i just do? and WTF is happening to me!! WHY WHY WHY! losing the hand wasnt the bad news.. im left with ONE freaking big blind.. and all players will resume tomorrow.. including me. now im left with the decision of should i come back or not? at first, i told myself.. nah..fuck that.. i aint gonna come back, play one hand then bust out.. how much of a clown can i be! but i got alot of people telling me that i should go back, “chip and a chair” yada yada..(psh.. like im that lucky) .. although, i must agree… if i come back n go deep in this tournament ..how sick would that be.. obv im not day dreaming.. cuz im still in shock of how can a human possibly be this DUMB like me, im not sure if i should cry or laugh. i feel like someone hit me with a car, instead of killing me… it left me with one working hand.. and im not sure if i should use this hand to feed myself food to survive.. or use a gun to shoot myself in the face.. either way… we all can agree that im a fucking idiot.

to be continued…..