at 5:30

2nd time’s a charm WTF did i just do?
so i went back the next day to re-enter this $200k gtd tournament to prove that im good enough to do good in one of these donkaments… ummmm…yah right..

my table was pretty soft..nobody can really play..super abc and transparent.. through out the whole tournament.. i never had a hand.. or won any big pots…but i managed to squeeze myself to a semi healthy stack.. triple my starting chips by the end of the day .. till the last hand…. i had this huggggge brain fart that caused me to lose 98% of my chips… when i lost the hand.. i was like..WTF did i just do? and WTF is happening to me!! WHY WHY WHY! losing the hand wasnt the bad news.. im left with ONE freaking big blind.. and all players will resume tomorrow.. including me. now im left with the decision of should i come back or not? at first, i told myself.. nah..fuck that.. i aint gonna come back, play one hand then bust out.. how much of a clown can i be! but i got alot of people telling me that i should go back, “chip and a chair” yada yada..(psh.. like im that lucky) .. although, i must agree… if i come back n go deep in this tournament ..how sick would that be.. obv im not day dreaming.. cuz im still in shock of how can a human possibly be this DUMB like me, im not sure if i should cry or laugh. i feel like someone hit me with a car, instead of killing me… it left me with one working hand.. and im not sure if i should use this hand to feed myself food to survive.. or use a gun to shoot myself in the face.. either way… we all can agree that im a fucking idiot.

to be continued…..

**busto, better luck tomw

a view from my new place.. finally my dog has a place to shit!

20 hrs of driving from Dallas to Coral Springs FL… I’m finally here! the sunshine state.. yah i see sunshine here n there…but does it have to rain so goddamn much? so muggy, gotta put on double deodorant, shortest shorts, thinnest shirt before i walk out of the door n feel like i haven’t showered in 3 days as soon as i get into my car… anyway..i do like it here so far… grass n lakes everywhere.. pretty tropical, but with all the grass n trees, there’s a negative side to it.. for some reason.. most stores/restaurants/markets don’t have big signs by the streets, they are all hidden behind the trees; inside of the shopping centers, you really have to look thro the cracks btw the trees, so you better know where exactly you’re going..if you wanna run into some hidden gems to try out…good luck.

I’ve worked twice since i got here..mainly gonna play 5/10 since the games are better action the 10/20, the only thing i gotta say about these games are …. SB/BB/limp/$165 to go.. WHATTTT hahahhaha

anyway.. here are so random shit…..i can’t stop watching jersey shore…fuckin trashy, i love it! // Drake is half jewish // did u know Dexter’s sister is his wife in real life? // n you’re fuckin awesome Sam An Nguyen!

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class
began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it
with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar
lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students
again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled
up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a
unanimous “yes.”

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire
contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

“Now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided, ” I want you to recognize that this jar
represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things: God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and
your favorite passions – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life
would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is
everything else…..the small stuff.

“If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued, “there is no room for the pebbles or the golf
balls.

The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never
have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to
your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner
out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
Take care of the things that really matter first…..the golf balls. Set your priorities. The rest is just
sand.”

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor
smiled.

“I’m glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s
always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.”

so i will be driving to Dallas for a few weeks to relax some more (not like taking a month break from poker isnt long enough already) then i will make my second half of the drive from Dallas to Coral Spings, Florida. i probably not gonna update this often for the next few weeks, cuz my only laptop internet access is thro my blackberry (kinda too slow for me) but i will upload pics if i do take any… anyway..

Dear Dallas, is there any chance you’re not gonna hit 100°+ everyday… im kinda a weak sauce toward hot weather now… please don’t melt my skin and makeup!